Deciding whether to be a working mom or a SAHM is a very big decision. There is no right or wrong, but that doesn’t make it an easy call.
My last week of full-time work was in December 2012. In other words, a long time ago! Yes, starting in August I have been working part-time but I have still been officially on maternity leave. In case you don’t know, here in Ontario we get a year off (maternity and parental leave combined) which means I will soon be working again.
So of course I am going through a phase of wanting to stay home with the kids one minute and then wanting to go back to work the next.
I am happy at the thought of being at work again, getting breaks, getting to be an independent productive person apart from my kids, but I am also nervous and scared about juggling so many balls at once.
I am also proud of myself for being for almost eleven months now and not going crazy like I did last time I was on mat leave.
The good thing is that since my parents are the ones that help out with the kids, I don’t feel guilty about leaving them to work, but I do feel guilty about leaving my “older” parents to have to take care of three young kids.
The clock ticks on and all good things must come to an end. It will be the end of the year that was, but it will also be the start of a whole new chapter in my life. The pause this year has given me has allowed me to regain my strength and focus and I have new goals now, and new dreams and for that I am so thankful.
Wish me luck, only four weeks left.
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