First, let me set the scene. When I was on mat leave after having Sawyer I was pretty depressed because I felt cut off from the world. Partly because we had no car, and since by the time he could go long enough between nursing it was winter and too cold to out. The second part was because I couldn’t get on to the computer because I was too busy taking care of Sawyer.
Fast forward to now. I now have an android phone. This allows me to shop, read books and magazines, research, blog and of course go on Facebook.
I would say Facebook and I are frenemies..sometimes it makes me happy and sometimes it upsets me. Part of it is me. I have this way of turning everything into a competition. Let’s face it, life is not a competition. While I know that in my head, I still have the urge to be the slimmest, best mom, dog owner, etc etc.
I have the same problems with boards. I try to help and offer advice, but I also get frustrated with the dumb things people say, or jealous of other people’s lives.
I often consider cutting the cord and saying no more Facebook, but then I can’t bring myself to do it. Heck, I check the darn thing like 30 times a day. I think of life in status updates!
Really, I mean, half of my “friends” on fb aren’t even.really friends (and I am pretty choosy about who.I add).
Well I have yet to resolve the issue in my mind, I have resolved to live in the moment, and not worry about “reporting” it on Facebook or to worry about what other people are “doing” (I use quotes because Facebook represents the lives people want you to see, not necessarily how their lives really are).
I need to find peace, and somehow as happy as my phone makes me, I don’t think that’s where I will find it.