Out on our walk today I think I finally realized what a blessing my girls are, well all my kids are.
Sometimes when you are so busy changing diapers and cleaning up messes you forget to see the forest through the trees.
I think of myself as an average normal mom, but the truth is I am unique (we all are in our own ways).
It started with a nice old lady who stopped to say hi to the girls, who obliged her with with big smiles. She then addressed Sawyer and said he was such a nice big brother and what a lovely family we were. She told me about her three grandkids (two boys and a girl).
Many more smiles and comments from people (mostly elderly) later, it ended with an elderly man with a cane who shared the elevator with us. He smiled and cooed at June and greeted Sawyer. Getting off, he held the door and as I thanked him he thanked me for letting him see the girls. He said he had six grandkids of his own and they were his world.
Then as we walked home it hit me, how lucky I really am (and believe me I have always felt grateful for my kids).
Seeing the gleam in the eyes of so many seniors at the sight of the twins made me realize I was doing something right. I mean, they have lived a lot more life than me and they are older and wiser. And the fact that they love and value seeing my kids so much tells me that I made a good choice.
If you are a regular reader you will know that I never really wanted kids. Well, I was open to it, but it wasn’t something I gave much thought to.
Then one day I did.
I was always super career orientated and I have had to make sacrifices for the life I have now.
But that gleam, their stories, prove to me that nothing is more important than family. Everything in life will come and go, and it can be dangerous to build your identity around fleeting ideas. Family is family, it’s work, it’s love, but its not a regret.
When (if) I get old and grey, I know it will make me happy to know what an impact I have made on my kids lives and hopefully their kids, just like my mother and grandmother have on me. If I can think of one meaningful reason in life, it would be that.
Mommy loves you Sawyer, Sansa and June.