A few months ago I wrote a post on being a working mom vs. Being a SAHM. Click here to read. My thesis was that neither is “harder” they are just different in their own way.
Well now that I am starting to transition back into a working mom, let me tell you, it’s hard! (Mind you, I do remember feeling this overwhelmed the first time I went back to work after Sawyer was born so I know it will pass…I hope!) A week in last time I had a melt down on the bus ride home, crying about how I’d never see him again and not understanding how other women do it. But within a few months I was working 45+ hours without giving it a second thought.
Still, I am feeling really pressed for time. I mean, now I have to do all the things I used to do, but I also have to find time to do work on top of that. Since my days were already quite full with three young kids and two dogs, mostly I have been staying up late after everyone is sleeping to get things done. It’s been okay so far, but I am getting pretty tired and I know there is no way I can sustain this. And this is just me getting ready to go back to work. What’s going to happen when I am actually working?! Yikes.
Don’t get me wrong. I do like working and I am looking forward to going back, but I love my family and I am a control freak. Those things don’t go well together. One of my struggles is learning to let go, and I have been doing well with that while on maternity leave. However, once you add the pressure back in, it gets much easier to revert into old habits.
So to all you working moms out there my hats off to you. Hopefully I can learn to find balance and peace and not get too overwhelmed!