There have been times in my life when I swore more than others depending on my friends, what television I was watching, books I was reading, my job etc. But since I had kids I managed to leave any vestiges of trucker mouth behind me….
So fast forward until now and I find myself dropping F bombs once every couple of days. What’s worse is I have done it in front of my kids. It’s so hard not to when it’s all you feel you’ve got to get your frustration out.
Picture it. Blistering mad, can’t yell, can’t hit something or break anything, can’t cry and can’t get away. What do you do but curse it out!
Of course I am worried about swearing in front of my kids and I think it makes me a bad parent but I don’t know what to do sometimes when I get pushed to my limit. Admittedly, it does take a lot so I am mostly my cheery self but still…
Today I went upstairs to put away laundry and came down exhausted to my daughter having ripped open every box of tissue we own and leaving piles of tissue all over the living room, hallway and kitchen. I was tired and trying to clean and do laundry and about to cook dinner and I was literally going to loose it and out came an F word as I marched upstairs to take a time out. Yes, I could have counted to 10 or something but I was in flight or flight and instinct alone.
So I guess I am asking what do you do or what should I do? Luckily my kids don’t swear and I want to lead by example but I worry if I don’t curse now and then I might do something worse like hurl something across the room and that would not set a good example.
I want my kids to be able to learn to manage their big emotions and lately it seems like I cannot handle mine so how can I help them? (I should also mention I am normally very passive but this pregnancy has brought out the heat in me. Wondering if it’s the testosterone because it’s a boy, find out the sex in a week).
So swearing yeah or nay? What do you do when you are at your lowest low? I’d love to hear some other tips and tricks.